After the red carpet, everyone kept asking me the same question:“So… what have you been doing since then?”
The answer surprised even me.
I’ve actually felt more grounded than I have in years. There’s been this quiet arrival inside me. And yes, a boost of confidence in my work as a creator, not because of the carpet itself, but because of what it reminded me:
I was always in this for the love of the game.
I’m still me—the same storyteller, the same weirdo who makes Reels at 2 AM, the same girl who laughs at her own edits. The only difference is that now I understand my value on a deeper level. My creative direction feels sharper, more intentional. The noise in my life is fading out. The emotional attachments I used to carry!to people, belongings, and expectations are dissolving (and, boy, does it feel good!). And what’s left is what has always mattered: good friendships, real support, and the people who’ve shown up for me consistently.
And yes, I’m still making Dracula edits.
Of course I am. It’s a beautiful love story, tragic but wholehearted. It taught me something that I think we all forget: love fully and live fully, every single day.
From Hollywood to the Rice Fields
Right after the premiere, I flew straight to the rural parts of Thailand which was a complete contrast to the global stage, and honestly, exactly what I needed.
I finally received my Thai citizenship. I’m officially a dual citizen, and there’s something surreal about putting into paperwork what I’ve always known internally: this is who I am.
I’ve been spending my days with family, eating everything in sight, wandering quiet markets, shopping, laughing, just living again. The simplicity of it all feels like medicine. Seeing life from this side of the world right after walking a Hollywood carpet is almost poetic and opposite ends of the spectrum, somehow stitching together the same storyline. It’s peaceful here. It’s calm.
What Comes Next?
The truth is: I’m building. I’m creating. Once again.
There are so many new ideas forming—romance pieces, cinematic edits, personal vlogs and as always, Dracula still has a hold on me in the best way. People love the edits, and I love making them. The inspiration hasn’t faded at all.
And then there’s Unbothered, my next memoir. So much material, so many moments, so much growth. I can’t wait to share it with all of you.
This next version of me? She’s the strongest one yet. You’ll see her bloom piece by piece, reel by reel.
If you could see what’s happening inside my mind right now—the ideas, the connections, the visions—you would be shocked in the best way. But trust me, you’ll see it unfold soon.
To everyone who’s been here through the reels, the chaos, the silence, the red carpet…thank you.
Truly.
Your support has carried this entire journey farther than I ever imagined.
-Carmen