Oh, my goodness. It’s been a lot, my friends. Here's what's been going on.
On October 27, 2025, I lost my sweet girl, Sushi. She was my 16 and a half year old Chihuahua, and she truly was the light of my life. Saying goodbye to her was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. I recently got her ashes back, and since then, I’ve been in a deep season of mourning. We had such a beautiful life together, many years of routines, cuddles, and little glances that said everything. I can hear her little paws on the floor. I miss her every single day. I keep her memory alive in everything I do.
During this time, I’ve thrown myself into creation. I’ve been making videos and reels more than ever, really leaning into the type of art that brings people joy. It’s been a strange kind of peace to lose something so big and still feel called to make things that make people smile.
I’ve also become completely obsessed with the new Dracula movie starring Caleb Landry Jones. He is unbelievable. What an absolute talent. I love this kind of love that's dramatic, haunting, and cinematic, and I find it beautiful to witness. The cinematography is next level. I’ve never been someone who made fan edits before. But hey! Here we are! And I kind of love it!
Somewhere in the middle of all this, something crazy happened. Megan Fox, SZA, Salice Rose, and Blac Chyna all liked my reels. I know. What is life? It’s honestly been overwhelming in the best way. I’m still mourning, still healing, but I’m also continuing to succeed in my career as a creator. I am, as always, so deeply thankful.
And then, without warning, the cat distribution system found me. A little black kitten showed up at my home like a message from my Sushi girl. I let her inside because it was raining so hard. She jumped on my curtain rod and just perched there, silently watching me like she already lived here the first night I took her in. I looked up and said, “You look like a little bat.” And just like that, I became a first-time cat mom to my little Batgirl.
She’s mysterious and clever and she absolutely stuns me. She knew how to use the litter box from day one. Cats are magical like that... so... agile, private, independent. I love her so much. It feels like she found me when I needed her most.
This weekend is Thanksgiving, and it’s always a reflective time for me. Three years ago, my first major viral video hit the Instagram algorithm and changed everything. Since then, it’s just grown and grown. I don’t take it for granted. Thank you for supporting me and being part of this story.
I’m learning how to hold many things at once. I can grieve my Sushi girl, I can become a new cat mom to Bat, I can make my dreams come true one reel at a time. There are no rules for this playbook. I get to write them as I go. And that’s the coolest part about life.
Have a beautiful weekend.
May you be surrounded by health, joy, and little reminders that magic is always everywhere.
Warmly,
Carmen Vera