It’s 2:21 in the morning, and I’m writing this with no real plan, just a feeling.
Lately, I’ve been experimenting with styles, formats, ideas, and parts of myself I hadn’t touched in a while. But through all of it, I’ve just kept creating. And honestly? That’s been the win.
Whether you’ve been watching me since the beginning, or maybe you just found me mid-scroll at 2 AM, or someone who has been watching me since the Vegas era, I’m glad you’re here.
Something I’ve been thinking about a lot is range. “What makes me feel most alive when I make it? Can I try other genres?” And the answer surprised me. Because even with all the new content, all the growth, all the views… I kept coming back to the old stuff that I just loved. The silly, weird little videos. The winner was the 4 AM brain-dumps where I was just doing something silly because it made me laugh. It didn't matter if it made others laugh.
And so, I’ve decided to revisit some of that work. Not because I’m stuck in the past, but because I think there’s power in remembering what started everything.
Over the next few weeks, you’ll notice more throwbacks on my page. These are the reels that built the foundation of my channel. They are the ones that eventually helped carry me to over 200+ million views. I have even had the approval of celebrities with their likes. It’s so wild. But more than numbers, what matters to me is the feeling. Rewatching those moments reminded me that the art I made when no one was looking… that was some of my best work.
And while we bring them back, I’ll be dreaming up new ones behind the scenes. Because that’s how I work. The old reminds me of why I started. And the new reminds me how far I’ve come.
I’m not chasing anything anymore. I’m just creating. And I feel good. This is the most alive I’ve ever felt. This is the most me I’ve ever been.
This is Carmen Vera to her core.
Thank you for watching. For being here. For letting me be all the things.
The serious, the silly, the cinematic, the chaotic, the nostalgic, the new.
All my love until the end of time,
Carmen